Many Christians (I’m sure) are familiar with this passage from the book of Hebrews: “Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.” (Hebrews 11:1, NASB). Have you ever prayed for something for an extended period of time, but subconsciously given up hope that your prayer would ever be answered? We say the right words when we pray and we end our prayer with “in Jesus’ name, Amen,” and yet, deep down inside, we just don’t believe that our answer will ever come. Well, I will confess that I’ve prayed this particular prayer but didn’t believe it would be answered. Was it because I didn’t believe that God could? No, to the contrary, as a part of my prayer, I would confess that I knew God was able. Or, was it because I didn’t have enough faith to truly believe that God would do what He promised? For me, it was the latter. The fact of the matter is, I’d seen God answer similar prayers for other people (and rejoiced with them when He did), but somehow didn’t think he would answer it for me (although I knew He could).
Then one day, during my prayer and devotional time, the Holy Spirit convicted me, and showed me that the reason I felt hopeless about my situation was because I was living in unbelief about it. Once I was convicted, I had to pray for forgiveness and ask God to “help my unbelief,” the same thing a father said to Jesus when he brought his son who was possessed by a spirit to Him asking for help. The father said, “if You can do anything, take pity on us and help us!” (emphasis mine) Jesus’ responds this way: “‘If You can?’ All things are possible to him who believes.” Immediately, the father was convicted and says: “I do believe; help my unbelief” (be sure to read Mark 9 for the entire story). After I was convicted, I asked God to help me and give me faith the size of a mustard seed. Frankly, I felt like I needed to start small in asking for faith in this particular situation (note: my faith has been great in other situations, but not in this one), because I felt just like that father who brought his son to Jesus. The small amount of faith I began to ask for is mustard seed faith, which really isn’t a whole lot!
As you can see from the picture, a mustard seed is a tiny thing! So small that it seems to get lost in the palm of a person’s hand. Is that amount of faith enough? Shouldn’t I have a little bit more than that? The answer to the question of whether mustard seed faith is enough, based on what Jesus said, is a resounding YES! He says in Matthew 17:20, “if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible to you.” (NASB)
So, I decided to take a small step and confess that I have this much faith that God will answer my prayer. Yes, I believe this sized faith is enough, and I’m standing on that belief and walking in faith (and not by sight). My prayer has not yet been answered, but I now have hope about it (something I’d given up on a while ago).
Why am I confessing this to you? I’m being transparent because someone is experiencing this same thing as we speak! You’ve prayed and prayed and prayed, the answer hasn’t come, and at some point, you made up in your mind that it would never come. I want to encourage you to take heart! Ask God to help your unbelief and give you just a little bit of faith. Stand on that little bit of faith and watch what God will do! While you’re waiting for your answer, He’s working on you to make you stronger, wiser and better.
If you can relate to this, feel free to comment and share your thoughts. I pray God’s blessings on you as He reveals more of Himself to you during this time.